Here, In My Head (part two in a series)

[octothorpe]

Last week-end was, in the moment, one of the best week-ends I've had in awhile. I got to play host to notdefined, and see some folks I haven't seen in ages. It was also one of the worst week-ends I've had in awhile, as it became clear how much of a mess I've been this last year.

One of the big problems I have is over-planning. Not so much day-to-day stuff, as I tend to be the exact opposite. It's the big stuff that I over-plan, making it ultimately impossible to move forward. I need to know everything before I can move forward. All the details need to be known, everything categorised, put in place. Of course, this can never really happen. You can't know all the unknowns, and accurately plan for every possibility.

My photography "guru" once said "You're done. Stop. Print it". He was right in more ways than the obvious. I come back to that every now and again when I see myself spinning my wheels, unable to move. Why is this time different? Perhaps it's the perfect storm of all three life aspects (Domestic, Social, Work) converging in a miasma, depriving me of oxygen.

Part Three will hopefully come this week-end. It'll describe my current situation in the three life aspects. Part 4 will be about goals. Part 5 should be about creating the steps toward those goals.

Some of these will be friends-only (like the first of this series).

Wish me luck.

Comments

[quirkstreet.livejournal.com]

Believe me, I understand. I suspect this effect is somewhat MORE true of you than it is of me, but I have my own case of it.

Self awareness never hurts (although clearly it can be painful) and the fact that you're attempting to work through this is good.

But seriously, I know what you mean. Being able to let some of my art out into the world when I'm aware of its flaws is big stuff, and years in the making. You're on a good path.

[mh58.livejournal.com]

Love it ... part3, part4 ... all planned out. What step does someone stop you and tell you you are done? ;)

[guiser1.livejournal.com]

Very good use of miasma.

Come see us Friday.

xoxox

[bear-left.livejournal.com]

Boy do I identify with a lot of this... I have so much planned out... and shockingly, life is not really unfolding according to plan.

[mrdreamjeans.livejournal.com]

I have this tendency myself ... one of the ways I stop the nonsense is to remind myself that there is no such thing as a perfect decision or a perfect plan.

I'm holding you close in my heart and thoughts ... So happy that you got time with Tommy and the others.

HUGS!

[fogbear.livejournal.com]

Wow, good luck!

My similar-yet-different problem is to so thoroughly map out all the prerequisites of a given Big Project that I get overwhelmed and the Big Project gets put on hold. "Well, yes, I'd like to have the outside of the house painted, but seriously, I should really replace those old rotting windows rather than painting them again, and if I'm replacing those, I should replace that other one, and then, oh yeah, the windows won't match on that side of the house so I should really replace all of them (even the new ones are 25 years old, and they're that anodized aluminum that hasn't aged well, so it would be much better), and of course I'll need to have some of the shrubbery trimmed back, but then I should really have that old spindly tree taken out and...." So the house still needs to be painted.

Seriously, good luck. I hope I get to see Part 5 for some wisdom that I could use myself.

sorry to read this

[rockey1.livejournal.com]

sorry to hear that you had a bad weekend. hope you are well - - miss you btw

[annoyinghandle.livejournal.com]

Planning? What is this planning of which you speak? Clearly, I have the opposite problem, or maybe I'm just an "idea man" that not very good at implementation.